There is a woman I know who keeps my heart because she possesses an inherent understanding of how the world works, all the women (4) possess this ability. The first is my ex-wife, a relatively tiny Asian woman, who wore colorful outfits and bows in her hair. She possessed masters degrees in Spanish Languages and.

Literature and Economics, was the Vice-President of a business organization at University and ran her father’s business at 25 years old. She was a rare beauty and once said the leaders of Nicaragua were monkeys who donned different hats. Or, she seemed to have dismissed all of Latin American Literature. She also said all work was basically the same. She was a wise woman. I absolutely loved and respected her, but I also could not give up being an artist and writer. Like my mother I will end up with nothing another person will find valuable. So, I am inherently jealous of her, just as I remain in love with the second, third, and forth women, who possess these practical positions on life, which is not to say that they also are not to say they are also the most beautiful women I know. They will never age. I will always find them beautiful. Perhaps, however I will become successful and be discovered and then and perhaps only then will I find self-worth. Maybe, I can meet them halfway. But, I am like my mother, who died penniless and physically broken. She was a runway model. My father was a doctor. I admire women, who have characteristics of my parents.