Thank you dear. I have four loves. I think they got me. They were a mystery to me, but I loved what they did and thought in the sense that they understood reality. They were capitalists and Republican. One wasn't. She studied English Lit and her student loans swallowed her. I don't think she can ever come back. I think they all disrespected my life and choices. As a non-capitalist, I think I don't respect my own. When I was with them, all I could think about was them. They were my life, my writing material. I was amazed by them. Their beauty seemed to define me. One was addicted to adderal. Three wanted children. I did not. I married the first one. She ended up someone who wanted children. I have been with women, who accepted me and truly valued me, but I became bored. I like strong chemistry. That's my problem. I like that you defined it: Strong Chemistry. I feel like the stronger the chemistry, the more certain the bond. But, I am alone. I make bad judgements regarding partners.