So, you gave her a list of reasons why you would never want to cam. It is odd to me that it was because of your body or comfort level. It wasn't about how it might affect the viewer or that someone might want to get in touch with you because they found you attractive, but not necessarily on a purely physical level, but one, where you seemed to describe confidence or shame, not being good enough or brave. There is so much beautiful humanity in this that that's what appeals to me. You say you were not sexy and that you were "Pale and curvy, with dark brown hair and glasses, a body covered in too many stretch marks from weight gain and pregnancy." This is better. I really love this part. These are really beautiful lines. I am amazed by you.