I just want to say that all I want for you is to feel safe and free to be whom ever you want. It doesn’t sound like ESL students are minors. Besides, it isn’t really any of their business, even though you may have made a technical mistake with a computer, your personal computer. If they don’t like it, they should have provided you with a computer for you to strictly use during your classes.

In addition, when I was a young child, my baby sitter spread her legs in lingerie and told me to come over. It was the most exciting time of my life. As an introvert and doctor’s son, I sought to soften the directness of the event by going to the refrigerator and getting a hypodermic needle and penicillin, returning and then immediately realizing as she shut her legs that playing doctor was no longer on the menu. I think by this example you realize that even very young children are aware of the concept of sexuality and arousal. I was completely attracted to my baby sitter, 18 years old, cute like a cheerleader. Permanent fantasy. Nothing further happened. I wasn’t hurt by it nor repelled. I don’t think your event could have been seen as anything more than the truth of life’s layers and I bet your were the sexual thoughts of the entire class, or the lucky ones, who were able to see. If you were not their type, then that surely doesn’t matter. However, as Lacan announced in his book Ecrits that: “It can be seen that the most incidental pretext is enough to arouse an aggressive intention that reactualizes the imago — which has remained permanent at the level of symbolic overdetermination that we called the subject’s unconscious – along with its intentional correlate.”

Basically, what Lacan means is that your students if pretext were construed, which it really could not, like any therapist’s patients, may seek to attack you for your humanity, where they are unwilling to address and make changes in themselves as students learning a new language, for example, which basically has nothing to do with that and, in fact, represents that which may be an overly complicated concept given the unique event of your sexual expression, obviously a mistake not intended for their eyes, since most therapists aren’t using “naughty picture therapy” in ESL, as far as I know.

Like a substitute teacher, I suspect, in that moment, there were a lot of sighs of relief if the curriculum was generally felt as too intense.

But, again, I think ESL students are older, most likely over 18 and thus, all people probably thought was, “God, I hope I never do that!”

So, when is your next class? Can we just dispense with the formalities and go straight to most interesting points, those closest to your heart and certainly lower? Bravo!