I am not sure I get the need to sleep 12 hours, but you are also working 13 and you do this while also being sick? Between these letters on the screen, I cannot picture you and the situation. But, I do see how the set-up can work, where you are just the receptionist and not the scheduler and accountant. In your lines of prose, I sense great intelligence and humanity and having to negotiate such realities. I have a friend who is like you. The more I drift away from solvency, I understand how these plans work. Poverty is a program that faces the realities of opportunity and sometimes you get in a place, where you have to take what you can get. I think I would like you as a person. I feel bad for you given the illness. But, there is great beauty in your words, and again, I think I would like you very much.