I am listening to you and I am understanding. When I returned from Hawaii after 23 years, I know what you mean. California, the state of my birth, was no longer the same. And with this current crisis of so many out of work and in self-quarantine, I think this is the nature of life. People say that they care, but can they really? Everyone is just trying to get in their projects while they live their real lives. I drink my soup and water and still I feel hopeful. I know this isn’t a real job, but in being in the world, I see where there are needs and I know I will always find work. You just do what no one else wants to do and there you have it.