Exactly, I need complete silence to follow my train of thoughts. I have found that living with people almost completely throws me off having enough time alone to determine what matters to me and work on it. And when I live with someone I want to be around, she becomes my focus. I am interested in her. She tells me about myself.

I am almost never “alone.”

I am constantly thinking about things. I feel alone when I want to be intimate with someone. The rest of the time, I don’t want to be distracted. I already have a day job that has nothing to do with who I am. That’s exhausting. When I am home, I am safe and free.