But, you said you had no money, and thus you can't have energy. I am confused by this metaphor. Also, You have no money, you are dating an Indian, And Anal. Is Anal a person's name? I assume you mean you are having to submit to anal sex, and that dating an Indian implies anal sex, and that not having money means you have found yourself in a powerless situation, which is confirmed by you $19 in savings.