At this point, I don't have any qualms about cheating. I don't even believe in "cheating" because feelings, the integrity of desire, have their validation. After all, relationships begin with this array of pheromones, physical attraction, whatever, and relationships are thus built on a fragile foundation. Life isn't about these affairs of the heart but about what you do about the things you love to do.

I admit that I love someone, and by loving someone, I know she may wish to be with another man at any point, and I often wonder what keeps her in love with me. I want her to be free because this is her life, not mine. We must make hard decisions about whether or not the other person is keeping us from being ourselves. That's the regret that makes us regret being with someone we shouldn't.

I love her because she is loving and kind. I love her because she raised her son as a single parent. I love her because she reminds me of my mother. I love her because she knows what will happen in the future.

I was also cheated on and told this person it didn't matter. She could not be anyone other than herself. I understood why. I was responsible for seeing the red flags, and I knew them. I married her anyway because I loved her. I still do. I have no regrets.

The point is to love, ban the expectations, and don't think that someone owes you love. You have to trust in yourself. This is your life, and it isn't about romantic relationships. It is about your purpose in life, which is what you love to do. Concentrate on that, and you will be happy.